Confront the hate. You say you can't help it, feeling what you feel, but that's defeatist. Not because its existence implies those you love could be wrong about you, but because you know in your heart its existence is wrong. Drinking's hiding from the truth, which is: your hate's a fight you think is too hard to win. Kicking the can down the road. Stop that. It belongs in the trash. The real fight is learning how to make yourself pick it up.
[Sorry Cad, you get the 'read' treatment. It's not malicious but Cloud-
Yeah.
Next session, he doesn't even bring it up. And if Cad doesn't either, well, all the better for him to avoid looking into that dark, dark place that he's been far too many times in a life as short as his.]
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You say you can't help it, feeling what you feel, but that's defeatist. Not because its existence implies those you love could be wrong about you, but because you know in your heart its existence is wrong. Drinking's hiding from the truth, which is: your hate's a fight you think is too hard to win. Kicking the can down the road. Stop that. It belongs in the trash. The real fight is learning how to make yourself pick it up.
What do you hate about yourself?
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I don't think
I wanna talk about this
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Yeah.
Next session, he doesn't even bring it up. And if Cad doesn't either, well, all the better for him to avoid looking into that dark, dark place that he's been far too many times in a life as short as his.]
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FELL BACK ASLEEP
yeah this one's going in your file, buddy. Big mental red circles, though he won't force it as he said. He's keeping an eye out.]