steepwithdead | Folkmore

Mm. May I ask, why you think that it could have been your fault?

Because, isn't that the best case scenario when someone suddenly disappears?

[He says this with a brightness that could almost be compared to lemons. Bright- but bitter]

After all, then they are safe. So after eight years of pondering this and finding out no, that isn't what happened - hard to change your brain overnight. Brains are weird, yup.

I can't say I've thought of it that way. Having heard it, though, I can understand why you would.

[His situation is different. Perhaps it's easier, when those who vanish told you they were leaving ahead of time. Easier to believe they were consumed by the world, rather than they didn't want to come home to you.]

You still feel guilty for his disappearance, despite knowing the truth?

Yup, because brains are weird.

[He pointed out.]

It makes the rules, I just follow them.

Hmm. Rules can be broken, though.

That is very hard to do. I have beem trying to.

It is, yes. Sorry, I don't mean to lecture. It's meant to be encouragement. I'm sure you'll get there.

[He sighs a little.]

It feels like people expect me to just flip a switch in my brain, yup. 8 years after all.

Don't be afraid to tell people to adjust their expectations of you. You have a right to change at your own pace. You're not obligated to change at all- while it is healthy to be yourself, you can be whomever you wish to be, publicly or privately, and to anyone you wish.

It's hard. I feel like because how I started off with Ingo when he came here, he doesn't trust me to think for myself at times. Like, I am just saying something to make him happy.

[Emmet sets the tea down.]

Like about Hisui.

Hisui... [He thinks for a moment.] I've heard that name. Ingo mentioned it before.

[He doesn't have much context for it, though.]

Ancient Sinnoh- about 150 so years in the past. Across the ocean and everything. Where Ingo was sent.

[Emmet figures Caduceus was a nuetral third party.]

When the Fox sends us back, I want to go to Hisui. I don't like Unova much anymore, plus Ingo has a job there. I'll miss the Subway, but I'll be with Ingo.

That's a lovely thought. It would be good if you could stay together.

[The context makes more sense now.]

He doesn't think you mean it when you say that?

I think he thinks I would rather have modern conveniences and stuff. But he has a place in Hisui, I might not- but really I don't think I have a place in Unova anymore either.

[Well, he knows it. After all, if someone goes missing, they always look at the people closest to the victim. And then there is always the court of public opinion...]

Why is that?

[He doesn't know much about Unova at this point, either.]

So, when someone goes missing, they look for the usual suspects. A person is more likely to be hurt by someone close to them rather than a random stranger just because of how often they are aroud them.

[Emmet decided to explain the basis of things.]

Where Ingo went missing was in the back offices of the Gear Station, where only employees such as myself, him and depot agents have access to.

Ingo left our office with his Pokemon still in the office. So that means if he left the office it was with someone he trusted. With all this information in mind, who do you think had the light shined on them first?

Ah... I understand, yes.

[That makes sense, laid out logically that way. Unfortunate, of course.]

That must have made things so much harder for you. I'm sorry.

[To not only lose his brother and have no explanation for what happened, but to be suspected of causing his disappearance? That's terrible. When his own family disappeared, he only had to deal with his own loneliness, and the curse in the woods. No one was banging on his door to arrest him or point fingers.]

And even when I was cleared as a suspect, the court of public opinion is hard to change also. It's also not like they could do any DNA tests to try and see if there was any genetic evidence I hurt Ingo because we are identical twins.

[He sighs.]

It gets hard to think about the number of people who think you would be capable of doing something like that.

[The heck is DNA-]

I can only imagine. That, alongside finding him again, must have made this world more appealing to you, am I correct?

[If there was such a lack of a support system, and high suspicion for something as terrible as killing his own brother, the thought of starting over - here, and in Hisui later - must seem the better option.]

Yup, I actually thought I had died originally and was very okay with that.

[Says...brighter than someone SHOULD say something like that.]

Was more concerned if one of my Pokémon ate my body, because people don't take too kindly to Pokémon eating people.

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[Caduceus's lips purse into a tight frown. Literally none of that was great, actually! But he's also no stranger to dark thoughts after losing one's family, so he can understand the sentiment. When you think you have no one, you live on the cusp of some very dark days, very dark thoughts.

He cannot - and will not - judge.]

I'm very glad you reunited with him, rather than the alternative. How was your first meeting?

I think it went well, besides me being a crying mess, yup.

[He cried a lot.]

Ingo must have thought I was a crazy person because he didn't remember me. Still doesn't remember me, but that's okay.

Not entirely, but there are signs of recognition, developing gradually. Your identical face must have resonated with him as well.

[He imagines it would have been very odd, seeing your own face on someone else.]

I am pretty sure a part of him thought I was a Pokemon at first. Also, of course he recognizes me now, he is getting to know me again.

[Makles sense to Emmet right?]

[Makes sense in general, really. ...Except for the first part.]

Pokemon can look like humans?

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cw: mild suicidal idealation

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