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[Oh, that's. Abrupt. Caduceus is suddenly very grateful that his roommate is out and about, because whatever's happening here is not suitable for an audience.

He shuts the door, following Akechi over and sitting down beside him. Not too close, to crowd him, but Cad's never been one for unnecessary distance, either. It toes the line with option and invitation.]

We can figure that part out, then. Did something happen?

Yes.

[But Akechi stops there, gloved hands fidgeting together, the words trapped in his throat. Thankfully, Caduceus has patience to spare, so if he waits long enough, the boy finally finds his tongue again to answer.]

Did I tell you about the deal I made with Sahar nearly a year ago?

[As expected, Caduceus waits. And when the follow-up comes, he purses his lips tightly.]

You did. Your birth name, for Ren's safety. I recall it had unintended side effects as well.

[Memories of his mother...]

Hm.

[Maybe it helps to know that Caduceus knows, that he was one of the few Akechi could trust with that information. That has to mean something.]

It does seem like something I'd tell you. No one else would have understood. [The fidgeting annoys him, so Akechi slaps his hands down against his thighs, refusing to let himself drag this out further.]

Ren made a deal to return to them to me. A foolish, stupid deal that I'm pissed at him for.

....And yet...

[....

These... stupid, volatile, loving children. One after the next, hurting themselves for the sake of their other half. It's admirable. It's foolhardy. He wishes they'd carry fewer burdens. He doesn't know what to say, wishes he'd known it was this dire. He isn't sure what else could be done about it, but surely there was something else they could have...

...He exhales through his nose, quiet for a long moment. Not now. What's done is done.]

It's a relief to have them back, is it not? To remember her again.

[Akechi nods in response, a quick, firm little movement, mouth pressed together into a thin, worrying line.]

It was unpleasant, at first. Having them all return like they did, with the understanding that I'd been the one to give them away. [If not for Ren, he would have shaken to pieces due to the overwhelming guilt alone.] My mother wasn't perfect, but - she deserves to be remembered, especially when I'm the only one left who can.

[But this still doesn't completely explain why Akechi is here.]

It's been months now, but you mentioned there were times you came close to forgetting your own family, in the wake of their absence. I thought... Perhaps if we shared memories important to us with each other, if anything happens, they won't just disappear completely again.

[Caduceus blinks, initially. And then he realizes, after a moment, that he's no longer truly surprised by Akechi showing kindness in this way. He talks a big game and he's been wounded more times than Caduceus will ever know, yet this is another instance of him showing care in a way most, at a glance, would not predict. He feels very foolish, in this moment. He also feels... somewhat claimed.

He smiles, his expression softening.]

I'd like that, yeah. [It's been a year now since he's seen his own family, as opposed to the near-decade before the Mighty Nein rescued them from the gorgon's petrification. Their faces, their voices are clearer than before. But it's still... tricky, sometimes. Fuzzy. He only saw them for a day or so before their ties were severed once more, by travel, and then this place.

Still, their family lives were very different, as were their upbringings, so he is compelled to ask next,] Would it hurt you, to hear me talk about them?

[He doesn't mind listening, of course. And Akechi likely wants this to be a reciprocal thing, so it won't feel like one more debt. But the last thing he wants to do is cause this boy more pain.]

No.

[Akechi's response is quick and clipped, an immediate answer before he'll even allow himself to consider otherwise. As far as he's concerned, there is no other answer.]

I'm not so delicate that a mere conversation would hurt my feelings.

[It's not completely true, but in this situation, where his deepest wounds have been forcefully reopened, Akechi can't imagine anything hurting as much as this. Besides, as much as he's loathe to admit it, there's some truth he'd rather not acknowledge in the sharing of burdens with others, how not keeping it trapped inside of him makes it so much easier to carry.]

I'd like to hear about them, whatever it is you care to share with me.

Hm. [It's a quick answer initially, but Caduceus believes him, especially with the follow-up.] Alright.

[He thinks for a moment. There's a lot he could say - the perk and downside of having quite a large family - but he opts for the most topical and relevant to... current company, and the subject at hand.]

My mother's name is Constance. A firbolg of course, like me. I take after her the most, in both aesthetics and our faith. She taught me how to cultivate the moss we dye our hair with, how to weave and garden. She walked me through my first burials, our rituals and rites, how to grieve and remember and carry on living. I would not be who I am today without her.

[His hand lifts to his neck, tugging something out from under his collar- not the periapt he'd given to Akechi before, like one might expect, but a different necklace.]

She gave me this, before I left. The night I was brought here. Her symbol of the Wildmother, what acts as a conduit between Her power and ourselves. I'd never seen her take it off before.

[It's a simple, but quite beautiful woven gold cord, with a sculpted wreath at the center, leafy greens with a shepherd's hook through the center, made of polished clay.]

She said, "A little part of us goes with you. A little part of home." I've thought about it often, stuck here, without anyone I know. Trying not to feel alone.

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