[For once, Fjord is content with a quiet moment. Definitely because of the firbolg's company, there's no way he'd be nearly so meditative about watching that unfurl of petals and leaves in the pot on his own.
Whatever the case, he can't help the sheepish cast to his grin as he glances sideways towards Caduceus.] Why wouldn't I?
[...And why did he feel like it just went entirely went without saying that he would think of Caduceus?]
[Caduceus blinks back at him, somewhat confused to have it thrown back at him. Ah... that wasn't the most courteous thing he could have said, was it? It sounds like he'd assumed Fjord wouldn't. And maybe he did, a little. Their relationship is still growing, and the truth is, he must still be mostly a stranger to Fjord. He knows all of those secrets, many of which even Fjord himself still doesn't know. He's been... cagey, maybe. Not wanting to be too personal, while desperately longing to reach out.
Maybe he's been contributing to this distance between them, himself.]
Oh, you know. Nothing very interesting going on here! I'm sure you're used to a much more exciting life.
[Y'know. Adventuring. Living on the ocean. Whatever else he's been getting up to.]
Honestly... before the whole thing that got me in with Jester and the rest? [The sabotage the shipwreck, the whole mess with his patron that had led him to adventure.]
Life was pretty quiet. I mean there were bumps here and there but on a merchant ship things are fairly routine and unremarkable if you're doin' things right, and I was... well I dunno if I was satisfied with it to be honest, but I'd come to some sorta contentment with the idea of that bein' how the rest of my years might've gone.
You have always seemed more at ease on the open water.
[Even considering... well. Everything he's been through, and Uk'otoa's eyes on him. it's part of why the Wildmother was so well-suited for him. Safety on the sea... it's just what he'd needed.]
[He's curious. Both because this is an aspect of Fjord that he hasn't gotten a lot of detail on, but also because he's sure there is some comfort for Fjord to be able to share his history directly, rather than the vague "this guy knows more about me than I remember sharing".]
[It's easier too, that this is something more tame. But Caduceus isn't wrong that Fjord feels infinitely better about being asked about these things rather than someone else just knowing about him.]
The horizon. [The half-orc smiled lightly, glancing towards Caduceus.] When I was little and stood on the beach you could just... look out on the water and it looked like it went on forever. Like you could go sailin' your whole life and still not see the whole ocean. And then when I was divin' for salvage... you really got to see how much was under the surface, and it was... surprisingly soothing down there.
[Having spent enough time at sea at this point to get used to it, he can appreciate a few parts of the experience. It does help that it is still an aspect of the Wildmother's domain. Easier to feel her presence in the open sea than in a big city.]
I never spent much time by the water, let alone boats. Grew up too far inland. After I joined up with everyone, first impressions of boats were not... that great. It sure does look amazing out there, though. A realm of endless potential. I came around over time.
Yeah, you were more... in a place with lots of woods, right? At least from what you and the others told me.
[And really that sort of place suited the cleric as far as he could tell.]
Yeah, sometimes a person can get a bad first impression depending on the situation, [And the weather, given how temperamental the ocean could be at times.] Glad to hear you changed your opinion though.
[Basically the neighbourhood around where Fjord was taken prisoner, so conveniently close.]
We had to leave port in a hurry, and I wasn't on board. Had to swim to catch up in the dark. Not a great start for someone normally landlocked. [He chuckles faintly, shaking his head. He'd been so very naive about what was expected of him, back then. Thank goodness for Jester.] A few days on the open water made a big difference.
Oooh, yeah. [Fjord can't help but wince sympathetically.]
Night swimmin' can be a lot even for someone that knows the ocean. For that to be your intro, especially in that kinda situation... I can see why it took a bit to warm up.
Oof, did that before. Learnin' to swim, got a unfortunately good mouthful. [Fjord laughs in a wry tone.] Definitely made an impression, that's for sure.
[This shift though had him curious, head tilting as he considered that.]
[Surprise, Fjord, Caduceus opened his own door and you walked through with him. It's Wildmom time.]
She guides and protects those in nature, those who belong and those who wander through. Ships at sea are within her domain, and she watches over them. Often, she will take those lost in the water and bring them back to the safety of shore.
[Sounds familiar...]
I was adrift, too far from my home, with people I didn't know- and didn't know if I belonged with, yet. I was frightened, wondering if I'd made the wrong call. But once I settled, I could hear her loud and clear, in the wind and the sails. I was in her safe harbour, and all of you would become my family.
[It does sound familiar. And once again, makes Fjord wonder what must be wrong with him, that he was found, rescued by something else, something he could only guess was not nearly as protective as the Wildmother was of hers.
He didn't show the thought though, just smiling lightly as he nodded his understanding.]
I'm glad. That she was able to protect you like that. That we... I dunno, work? I admit I can't help but wonder here and there. All the big personalities, goals and secrets everyone in the group's got, hard to see how it'll shake out sometimes.
Give it time, you'll get there. [It sure did take TIME, though. Overtime. Many, many times. Lots of fighting over stupid things and serious things and clashing of heads. Or sharp things. Sometimes you try to kill each other and sometimes you save each other, and the scales balance in your favour.] We seem to be working out well here.
[Friendship is winning, Fjord. Sometimes it just kinda happens, and you get to keep the good things.]
[Fjord is sure that it took a lot more time back home, with everything they had to do, all the secrets actively in play. Here... it's almost like all of that drama is on pause. Unsettling in some ways, but at the same time it gives a chance to focus on things like this.]
Yeah, you're not wrong. Not as stressful overall, which helps, I think. [There's stressors and situations here, but it's not quite the same.] It's nice though.
[Interestingly enough, the excess of drama made their relationship grow faster. Fjord had needed an escape from his fate, and Caduceus was there to guide him towards the Wildmother. This world is an escape, and the Wildmother can't reach them. It's... different. Caduceus can't call it better, but he'd struggle to call it worse, either. Just means that their friendship is built on their individual merit more than what either of them can offer in the grand scheme of things.]
[Maybe the less transactional bend here helped. Fjord didn't really know how they bonded back home, but what they had here was... something new to him, really. Definitely not in a bad way.]
Most of my friendships before this were... more based on what we could do for each other. How useful I could be, what they could offer me in turn. This whole... [A vague gesture between them.] It's somethin' new to me. Which should be alarmin' but I can't say I don't like it for those differences.
Mm... I'm grateful that we have you. To those who didn't see your worth as who you are, not what you can bring to the table, it was their loss and our gain.
[It's definitely alarming that it's a new experience, but he's glad that Fjord is starting to depend on this experience more. His worth goes far beyond what he contributes. If only he knew how everyone circled in around him and supported him when he lost his warlock abilities, after refusing Uk'otoa. His contributions were hampered but his worth wasn't less.]
All of us value you and your friendship, Fjord. And if I may be presumptuous, I'd say me more than most.
[Jester's probably still got him beat, there. But hers is a different flavour of affection, and everyone knows that.]
[Fjord can't help the way he flushes and gets just a bit more flustered at the sentiment. It would be so easy to assume that it wasn't said in earnest, and yet...
Caduceus wouldn't lie. For all Fjord was a cagey son of a bitch about things, he knew that by now. The firbolg wouldn't tell him something like that if it wasn't true.]
...That so? [Voice a faint bit gruffer, but there was a pleased note under that.]
I'm glad, as well. I really don't think people talk enough about much the company of friends is cherished! It can be hard to put it into words. But I do cherish your company, Fjord. I'm really glad you're here with us.
[Sometimes he can even forget how many memories Fjord is missing. He's just... familiar. The accent throws him off, mind you.]
[It likely helps, that Caduceus forgets sometimes. It means he's not treating Fjord differently in some way that becomes obvious, that the half-orc would notice and worry over.]
Can't argue that. Don't think... I'd be near as okay with dealin' with this place without you around.
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Whatever the case, he can't help the sheepish cast to his grin as he glances sideways towards Caduceus.] Why wouldn't I?
[...And why did he feel like it just went entirely went without saying that he would think of Caduceus?]
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Maybe he's been contributing to this distance between them, himself.]
Oh, you know. Nothing very interesting going on here! I'm sure you're used to a much more exciting life.
[Y'know. Adventuring. Living on the ocean. Whatever else he's been getting up to.]
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Life was pretty quiet. I mean there were bumps here and there but on a merchant ship things are fairly routine and unremarkable if you're doin' things right, and I was... well I dunno if I was satisfied with it to be honest, but I'd come to some sorta contentment with the idea of that bein' how the rest of my years might've gone.
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[Even considering... well. Everything he's been through, and Uk'otoa's eyes on him. it's part of why the Wildmother was so well-suited for him. Safety on the sea... it's just what he'd needed.]
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[Fjord chuckled softly, with a small shrug, though he seemed quite relaxed in the moment. Caduceus and his chill vibes working their magic? Maybe.]
Even when I was a kid, before I'd so much as set foot on a boat I knew that's where I wanted to be.
[While some of that was the idea of escape that the ocean offered, but that wasn't the whole of it. It never had been.]
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[He's curious. Both because this is an aspect of Fjord that he hasn't gotten a lot of detail on, but also because he's sure there is some comfort for Fjord to be able to share his history directly, rather than the vague "this guy knows more about me than I remember sharing".]
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The horizon. [The half-orc smiled lightly, glancing towards Caduceus.] When I was little and stood on the beach you could just... look out on the water and it looked like it went on forever. Like you could go sailin' your whole life and still not see the whole ocean. And then when I was divin' for salvage... you really got to see how much was under the surface, and it was... surprisingly soothing down there.
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[Having spent enough time at sea at this point to get used to it, he can appreciate a few parts of the experience. It does help that it is still an aspect of the Wildmother's domain. Easier to feel her presence in the open sea than in a big city.]
I never spent much time by the water, let alone boats. Grew up too far inland. After I joined up with everyone, first impressions of boats were not... that great. It sure does look amazing out there, though. A realm of endless potential. I came around over time.
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[And really that sort of place suited the cleric as far as he could tell.]
Yeah, sometimes a person can get a bad first impression depending on the situation, [And the weather, given how temperamental the ocean could be at times.] Glad to hear you changed your opinion though.
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[Basically the neighbourhood around where Fjord was taken prisoner, so conveniently close.]
We had to leave port in a hurry, and I wasn't on board. Had to swim to catch up in the dark. Not a great start for someone normally landlocked. [He chuckles faintly, shaking his head. He'd been so very naive about what was expected of him, back then. Thank goodness for Jester.] A few days on the open water made a big difference.
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Night swimmin' can be a lot even for someone that knows the ocean. For that to be your intro, especially in that kinda situation... I can see why it took a bit to warm up.
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[He points, for a needless added effect.]
Did you know the Wildmother is the patron protector of ships and travellers on open water?
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[This shift though had him curious, head tilting as he considered that.]
I... haven't heard that before that I know of.
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She guides and protects those in nature, those who belong and those who wander through. Ships at sea are within her domain, and she watches over them. Often, she will take those lost in the water and bring them back to the safety of shore.
[Sounds familiar...]
I was adrift, too far from my home, with people I didn't know- and didn't know if I belonged with, yet. I was frightened, wondering if I'd made the wrong call. But once I settled, I could hear her loud and clear, in the wind and the sails. I was in her safe harbour, and all of you would become my family.
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He didn't show the thought though, just smiling lightly as he nodded his understanding.]
I'm glad. That she was able to protect you like that. That we... I dunno, work? I admit I can't help but wonder here and there. All the big personalities, goals and secrets everyone in the group's got, hard to see how it'll shake out sometimes.
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[Friendship is winning, Fjord. Sometimes it just kinda happens, and you get to keep the good things.]
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Yeah, you're not wrong. Not as stressful overall, which helps, I think. [There's stressors and situations here, but it's not quite the same.] It's nice though.
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Mm... yeah, it's nice.
[He likes it. These moments.]
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Most of my friendships before this were... more based on what we could do for each other. How useful I could be, what they could offer me in turn. This whole... [A vague gesture between them.] It's somethin' new to me. Which should be alarmin' but I can't say I don't like it for those differences.
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[It's definitely alarming that it's a new experience, but he's glad that Fjord is starting to depend on this experience more. His worth goes far beyond what he contributes. If only he knew how everyone circled in around him and supported him when he lost his warlock abilities, after refusing Uk'otoa. His contributions were hampered but his worth wasn't less.]
All of us value you and your friendship, Fjord. And if I may be presumptuous, I'd say me more than most.
[Jester's probably still got him beat, there. But hers is a different flavour of affection, and everyone knows that.]
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Caduceus wouldn't lie. For all Fjord was a cagey son of a bitch about things, he knew that by now. The firbolg wouldn't tell him something like that if it wasn't true.]
...That so? [Voice a faint bit gruffer, but there was a pleased note under that.]
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I wouldn't lie about such a thing. I'm terrible at it, anyway.
[If he was faking it, you would absolutely be able to tell.]
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[If ever, before falling in with the Nein. He liked the crew he worked with before, but there was something different here.]
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[Sometimes he can even forget how many memories Fjord is missing. He's just... familiar. The accent throws him off, mind you.]
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Can't argue that. Don't think... I'd be near as okay with dealin' with this place without you around.
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